Dear Diary (Week 14),

Locked inside my own body,
I struggle to be set free.
I try to wake up from this bad dream.
Already awake, I scream.
No one hears me.
It's not how it's supposed to be.

I'm livin' in my own reality.
The search for love feels like an eternity.
I get to view my life, from the front row.
I try to run but there's nowhere to go
'Cause I'm paralyzed from head to toe.
When will it be over? I don't know.

The shackles go beyond the surface.
Please tell me, for what purpose?
Hard to find meaning in life,
When it's full of strife.
Hard to stand tall,
When l feel small.
Hard to run, with nowhere to go.
Hard to believe, when not in the know.

Tryin' to learn from my mistakes
And stay away from heartaches.
I put in the effort it takes
But my heart always breaks.
Not sure who to trust, forgot how to love
Doing my part but need help from above.
All the pain I can't forget
But don't want to regret.

I'm emotional.
My mind's out of control.
Tryin' to manage each emotion.
So hard with all the commotion.
Jokes on me
'Cause only I hold the key
To be set free.

Love,
Faigy